Should I Move?

I've lived here all my life and I've got to admit it's been good to me. I've made lots of good friends, tons of my family lives here and I wouldn't mind giving my kids the same kind of memories and happiness I had with growing up here. I'm sick of Utah. I'm tired of being a mom here. Maybe it wouldn't be any different or better anywhere else, but I'm hoping that Mormon Moms are different outside of "Happy Valley".

I do tons with my family so I know that leaving would absolutely devastate them and myself for awhile, but I'm also tired of having everyone around. That obviously makes no sense. Leaving sounds ludicrous even as a write it. But I'm up for something new. I'm up for trying to be out on my own with my own little family. I want to watch us become ourselves, instead of just an aside to our families. Mostly, I want to get away from my in-laws. Maybe I'll post more of the specifics on that later. In short, they're super nice, but most of them are gone out of state too, except for Scott's parents. His mom is great and we get along fine, but his Dad is weird and he scares me. So I'd love to get away from all of the awkwardness that that creates and not have to see them every Sunday. It's uncomfortable being the only "kids" left and awfully boring. I wish just one of his sibblings was back here to live. But really in moving, it would probably just make coming home horrible, and ten times as tricky with the balancing families act.

I'm also sick of our house. It's too small. We thought we were going to be gone right now and so staying is difficult. We've got two small kids and we ran out of room once the first one got here.

I want more for Russ and his work. Things are kind of at a lame stanstill for Russ and work. I guess maybe the thought of that improving anywhere with the economy like it is, is wishful thinking, but I'd like to think he could do better. Maybe looking outside of Utah is the only way we'll find something better.

Mostly, I want a change. I want a change of wards, friends, houses, jobs, life. I want to start all over again. I want there to be more people to be friends with, more to learn and more to do. I'm tired of feeling lame and being here. I'm sure a lot of it is just that I need to change. I need to do things to make my life better, but I'm at that point where I don't care and I just want out.